Conscience and Pride
I feel like I have lost my conscience already just because of my pride that I can’t resist?or should I say, I really don’t wanna get over it. As days passed many thoughts are comin’ into my mind. Such as, maybe she changed her mind already bout what she accused me,but what frightens me everytime I think that I will be attending her class already is that again, and again and again, I still think that she might just give me shame when I enter the class because! I did not enter her class for a week. And she informed me earlier before our pre finals that if I’ll miss one meeting in that both subjects I have with her she will drop me out already. But I ignored that warning from her when she accused me with that,,u know…duuuuuuuuuuhhh..But! there is also this thought in my mind that she might still give me one more chance for her not to drop me out. But still my pride reigned. Because in my heart and in my mind. I really hated her. That’s how high my pride is. Now that I’m struggling because of the tuition that I am gonna pay for finals and it cost higher because of that 2 subjects I have with her. And since I’m not attending her class my tuition that is so high became worthless.My parents don’t know about what my teacher accused me and what Ifelt about that, which brought me to this kind of mess.That’s why my thinking is between conscience and pride. And sad to say I’ve choosen my pride again! I have done another mistake again! and regrets again! as well. Hope this would not bother me anymore. Hope this sem will end very very soon.
